Please forgive any mistakes, I am in a PC room and so am paying for every second I am on this computer! The keyboard is also clunky and seems to miss out words!

I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to do some research before getting stuck into the short story project I’m beginning. This could of course be a deeply layered procrastination exercise that I have convinced myself of because of my fear of failure at this project. This project has the potential to be good, and I want it to be, and so I am convincing myself that I can’t do it yet  in order to avoid the moment when I look at the words on the page and discover that  they do not meet my mental vision of what this project should be.

I have a new story idea ticking over in my brain, which I need to get down on the page before I talk myself out of it. This part of the story does not require research (or at least it can be done on wikipedia) but yet I am procrastinating. This is my main failing as a writer, and will always continue to be. Until I have a deal and a deadline, I have very little to drive me forward. I know many writers are in the same boat, but it is one of the only things that actually gets me down about my writing – the fact that I just don’t seem to do it!

I have finished rambling for now, and have perhaps even talked myself into doing something. It’s a shame I have to go and buy train/boat tickets now! And Christmas shopping…